Death anxiety

I feel you

And know you dearly

I have felt your presence

And have seen you often

I ask you who you are

Your mouth moves

At times I don’t hear a sound

Other times you speak a different tongue

And others

I have turned away

Akin to family

Yet closer

Within reach

Yet translucent

Like air

You flow through every orifice

At my grasp

I attempt to hold you

To understand you

To integrate you

To dissect you

To conquer you

For control

Gives me power

And to not know

Means to be powerless

And that powerlessness

Anxiety

For if I don’t know you

Then how will I know

How to live