I wept – An inner child reflection

This morning

I wept

I arose in anger

Residual from the day prior

The day that was supposed

To end when I closed my eyes

But the anger slept beside me

And awoke with me

I cursed situations

People

Myself

And it continued to lead there

Anger towards myself

Shaming myself

Minimizing my experiences

Disgust with who I’ve demonstrated

Myself to be

Instead of fighting it

I remembered that its there to protect me

What are you protecting me from, I ask

After sifting through

More hurtful words

I saw what was behind

And I wept

I heard the messages

That I don’t matter

And the argument

Within myself that I’m just being

Too dramatic

I lean into the voice of not mattering

And I see her image

Things she wanted to do

To tell others that she wished they cared

In a way that was visible

That someone would take the time

To help

To check in

To offer guidance

Someone to protect

And reassure

Someone to help brighten her light

Instead of dimming it

Yes, I saw

And I wept